A DREAM TO BE THIN.
I have a name trust me, aha. But just incase my friends ever find this..you will never know it.
I'm fifteen, i stand at 5"2 and i am 107 lbs. I should be happy at that weight shouldn't i? well... i'm not. I haven't always felt insecure about my weight and looks but its all started whilst being in high school. There are times where i'll be walking around school having a laugh with my friends but then i'll pass a girl with the most skinniest of legs or waist and it makes me want to crawl into a corner and cry to myself because i'm not like that; silly i know but that's the way i feel.
Around about this time last year, i got so upset about being 'fat' when i was about 117 lbs and decided to start starving myself in attempt to be as skinny as the other girls in school. When the people around me started to notice i started skipping meals, they guessed and told me that i was fine the way i was and that i was being stupid. I believed them and started to get on with things again and not really think about my weight. I'd eat what i wanted, when i wanted.
But it's started all over again this year.. but this time, its ten times worse. I CAN'T STOP thinking about my weight and it's driving me crazy.
I started starving myself about five months ago; the only things i really allow myself to eat is dinner with my family. That's one meal a day. And yes i know i'm stupid, but it's come to the point now where im actually scared of eating food. I HATE IT.
Me and my friends sit in the school's canteen at break and lunch time. We walk in together and they'll always say things like 'Oh my gosh! I'm starving, i haven't eaten since breakfast!' I just laugh along with the others and think 'Only if they knew...'
I made this tumblr blog to get away from my friends that follow my other one. Here i can write whatever is on my mind and reblog anything i want without having to worry about them seeing.
If you want to know anything or just talk, feel free to ask away ♥
I'm fifteen, i stand at 5"2 and i am 107 lbs. I should be happy at that weight shouldn't i? well... i'm not. I haven't always felt insecure about my weight and looks but its all started whilst being in high school. There are times where i'll be walking around school having a laugh with my friends but then i'll pass a girl with the most skinniest of legs or waist and it makes me want to crawl into a corner and cry to myself because i'm not like that; silly i know but that's the way i feel.
Around about this time last year, i got so upset about being 'fat' when i was about 117 lbs and decided to start starving myself in attempt to be as skinny as the other girls in school. When the people around me started to notice i started skipping meals, they guessed and told me that i was fine the way i was and that i was being stupid. I believed them and started to get on with things again and not really think about my weight. I'd eat what i wanted, when i wanted.
But it's started all over again this year.. but this time, its ten times worse. I CAN'T STOP thinking about my weight and it's driving me crazy.
I started starving myself about five months ago; the only things i really allow myself to eat is dinner with my family. That's one meal a day. And yes i know i'm stupid, but it's come to the point now where im actually scared of eating food. I HATE IT.
Me and my friends sit in the school's canteen at break and lunch time. We walk in together and they'll always say things like 'Oh my gosh! I'm starving, i haven't eaten since breakfast!' I just laugh along with the others and think 'Only if they knew...'
I made this tumblr blog to get away from my friends that follow my other one. Here i can write whatever is on my mind and reblog anything i want without having to worry about them seeing.
If you want to know anything or just talk, feel free to ask away ♥
I’m so jealous of those girls who have flawless skin, long eyelashes, a perfect nose, long hair, perfect teeth, curvy bodies, but yet they’re still skinny. I’m jealous of those girls that, no matter what they wear, they still look beautiful. Girls who are photogenic, who can make the craziest face, yet they still look cute. A girl who looks just as beautiful with makeup on as she does with it off.
(via worthlesshopelesssick)
